So I waited up all night again because He said he would call me at lunch his time...NO CALL !!!

I am so tired of this waiting crap! I hate when someone tells me they will do something and they dont!!! It pisses me off more than anything. I know he is busy,He doesn't have to tell me when he is gonna call next. Because I know there will be times we wont be able to talk for a while. But if you say you are gonna call me at lunch, even if its for 2 minutes then do it or dont say you will. I miss him like crazy and I love him more than I thought I ever could Love someone. I hate the distance between us and the time difference drives me crazy. I try to keep pushing the doubts from my mind but sometimes they crowd my brain! 14 months of this is gonna drive me bonkers. I am an honest person an I always say how I am feeling and what is on my mind whether I need to or not. So I dont know, if my email scarred him or what. But all my email was about is what we have already talked about. It was talking about marriage and that I would be proud to one day be called a proud army wife! Also that the time has shown me that I wouldn't mind waking up to his face everyday. I want to spend the rest of my life with him. I dont know what to do anymore. I know he Loves me! His dad tells me he is crazy about me... So why do I still have doubts that he feels the same as I do??? I dont know, all I can is keep waiting and hope to get to talk to him soon :)